As I Go...
What can I say? Words escape me as I sit here. I am trying to express what I am feeling and thinking but it's just not working too well. As I leave this place and enter a new season of my life I am bombarded with memories, they blow across my mind as a warm gentle breeze, swirling and crashing into one another. Memories are something that can not be taken from me only lost in the basement of my mind to resurface again when the time is right. I will remember what you have said. I am filled with love for each one of you. You have made my time here so sweet. I could never thank God enough for bringing me here, He knew we where right for each other. Emotion is crawling all over me and seems to have taken over. I never knew that love could be so painful yet so beautiful. I'm reminded of a song (I seem to have one for every occasion eh Aim?) in the song some of the lyrics go like this:"Time will ease your pain. Life's about changing, nothing ever stays the same... How can I help you to say goodbye? It's ok to hurt and it's ok to cry..."
Many tears have been shed and more will come, as difficult as it is I have confidence in God; God knows what He is doing. This is not goodbye cuz I will be right across the river, but it is goodbye to this season in my life. I know that in some ways things will be different, they can't help but be. I'm not trying to be a drama Queen or anything, I am just sharing my heart. I will never for get the way God has used the people of this place to form me and shape me and prepare me for this next season. My whole life God has been preparing me for this step and this step will prepare me for the rest of my life.
A few shouts out:
My Sunday School Kids: I love you all. Your smiling faces kept me going more than once. I look forward to seeing you when I come to visit.
Salina: God gave us friendship, thank you for opening this gift with me.
Jeff: I have known you longer than anyone here. That was such a comfort to me when I needed a familiar face, especially in the beginning. I value the friendship we've shared it has meant the world to me. Remember: "Life only gets richer" (A bazzilion other this inserted here).
Wendy: I've said all I can I think. I love you
Generations: Thank you for supporting me and believing in me.
There is so much more I want to say but really words are futile. I love you.
God help me as I enter this new season and thank you for bringing me to it. You are faithful.
posted by Christa @ 6:11 AM
4 Comments:
Christa... tears come to my eyes as I read this post of yours. So true... the beautiful pain of love and memories. I love you my dearest and I'm praying for you in this transition. I hope to see you soon. :)
Can I write right now? We will see if I can hit the proper keys through my tears. Props to the country song by Patty Loveless. I love you lots and we will talk soon, you are going 'home' tomarrow so I can't really call there but I will call closer to school starting. Remember, the more you fly, the more you'll see AND Don't be afraid little warrior bride...I support you, love you and pray for you always.
I love you Christa and i'm gonna miss you! i hope you come visit! love you
Christa....you are truly an inspiration. I can't wait to see what God is going to continue to do in your life. You have taught me so much by just being who you are. - I hope to be like you when I grow up-lol. Miss you already. Barb.
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