More of You
Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
so I don't know what's real and what's not
always confusing the thoughts in my head
so I can't trust myself anymore
I'm dying again*
How can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I've become so numb without a soul
my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home*
The topic in my perspectives class today was persecution in the Church and how that increases Church growth. We looked at the differences between the North American Church and the Underground Church in China. The Church of Canada is due for a change but what can I do by talking about it? I don't know what to feel right now, what to say or how to respond. There is so much I want to see happen here in Canada, but how do we get there from here? All I can do is pray, cry out and devote myself to Jesus like never before.
I know that I asked You to come into my life, I know I freely invited You, Lord. I wept and cried out for more of You, but I did not expect it to look like this. You have been breaking me and You where so gentle that I didn't even notice until now. I feel as thought You have taken away so much, or is it lost in the apathy that surrounds me? Where is the boldness that I once had to stand up for what is right? Where is the part of me that would not compromise? Where is the part of me that knows who I am? You have shaken my very foundation, and my world is upside-down. Your work here is not finished though, continue tearing down. Shake my world! Let Your sword be sharp to my flesh. Let Your fire be unbearably hot; I do not want to stay the way I am. When it's time, and only then, rebuild my world but this time let it be centered around You and not me.
Keep it real! Go forth in the strength that you have been given and do not lose heart He is with you!
Judges 6:14
2 Corinthians 12:9
Galatians 6:9
Deuteronomy 31:6
*From Evan Escence “Fallen”
